selfish

children can be selfish.

why?

we rebel when parents trying to protect us.
we don't listen when they give advices.
we talk back when at times we shouldn't
we sigh when they asked us a few favors.
we make faces when they starts to bebel.


parents. on the other hand.

tried their hardest to give whats best.
never get tired of us.
just had to give advices wishing that we won't make mistakes like they did.
just want to protect their "babies".


but sometimes these never-tiring-love could lead to suffocation.

a suffocation that we should bare and appreciate.
and never take for granted.

run, stop, relax.

something we are so use to doing, suddenly stop.
what should we do?

will we be running amok?
will everything go haywire?

perhaps we should slow down and look at the rainbow.
right after the rain.
perhaps we should stop and feel the light breeze.
of a calm evening.

it will be hard at first but please.
dont be despair.
everything will work out eventually.

Mirror

Had fun today. Took some good pictures of my subjects (sabrina and friends ^^)
But little work has been done. -___-;; adoi..

Yes.. yet another poem by yours truly.
An old one too.
Let me explain a bit.
This time, the poem is about..
Something that you see everyday.
Something that you use everyday.
Something that you can't live without.
And no, its not air. Its a thing. *duh!* XD

ok..
Enough with the suspense already.
I bring you:


Mirror by Atikah Ansari, 18th January 2006

Mirror..

does it portrays the truest beauty that one could have
or does it portrays one unusual behaviour..?

does it resembles one’s mightiest affection
or does it resembles one’s weakest defection..?

does it shows the sad feeling, the pain and the disappointment in one’s eyes
or does it only shows the beautiful colours of one’s eyes..?

does it flaunts one’s amazing personalities and characteristics
or does it only flaunts one’s outer district..?

does it reveals one’s darkest secret that only one can hold
or does it reveals only one’s ability to cover with lies and fraud..?

does it tells one’s deepest secrets
or does it tells one’s biggest heartiest regrets..?

does it shows one’s mission to be among the greatest
or does it shows one’s great faith..?

does it portrays one’s sole ambition
or does it portrays one’s inner devastations..?

does it shows one’s perfect happiness
or does it shows one’s incredibly heart-felt sadness..?

mirror..

a perfect disguise to distract oneself..
a perfect tool to fool anyone..
the perfect approach to face the truth
the perfect illusion..

a question of liability
a question of honesty
a question of predictability
a question of curiosity..

or is it just only a reflection of the one who beholds it..?
that can only be the truth as its only a reflection..

Ya.. Very amateur-ish. XD
Actually my inspiration for this is quite simple.
Just a mere mirror. ahaha..
I love mirrors, don't get me wrong.
But it got me thinking of what it's main purpose.
What it really does to people..

So what do think of mirrors after this?
Does it really resembles you?

Untitled

Bismillah~

Second entry~ *throw confetti*
Although my header screams Happiness is Here, I don't think my recent posts are about happiness. Yet. >.< style="font-style: italic;">happiness. ^^

Okay then, my second copy-pasting series.
A poem yet again. ^^;
This maybe my last one?

BUT!! Be warned! The following text has some major jiwang issue!!!!
Even I can't believe that I, wrote this one. Seriously!
But you know, I don't think I can write this sort of stuff anymore..
sigh~

Anyways, here it goes.
*brace oneselves*


Untitled by Atikah Ansari, 2nd January 2006

i knew i loved you..
from the moment i met you..
from the moment our eyes gazed upon each other..
on that very moment i know that we are destined to be together..

i must confess, its a sudden i know..
but i wouldnt say it if im not sure..
for you’re the only one that my heart fell for..
and that you are my happiness, my pain, my prized possession, my only treasure..

through the years we’ve been friends..
i could always rely on you for comfort, for security, for assurance..
as for now the right moment has arrived
for me to confess that..
you have my heart..

you have thought me the lessons of life..
how we both thrived..
to emerge and be the best we could be..
and that we can do anything n make it a reality..

all this time we talked about our dreams and goals..
to play such good and honourable roles..
whether in our daily lives or in the battlefield..
our destiny is to be fulfilled..

when and if we get to go through the gateways of heaven..
i can only say, life without you i cant imagine..
as for you are my sole compassion..
and my utmost alligence..

i want to express my deepest gratitude
for your most sincere atitude..
im thanking God for making me see
opening my eyes to many possibilities
and that He has led me to you as you are to me..

I KNOW! Jiwang karat tak boleh blah!! :O
LOL XD

What to do? This was written 2 years ago with me being naive and err... innocent? XD
Comments are welcome BUT, be gentle? Hehehe.. :D

I think there is another poem to be published just around the corner.
So watch out for it.
And no, its not jiwang karat!! XD
I guess its about what i was thinking at that moment.
Will explain more in the next post~

;)

posto no ichi

Bismillah.

Another blog to write on.
Right now, I have, in total, 4 blogs. Including this. XD
This time, I think I want to change my way of writing.
Or a change of air.
Or not. ^^;
You might ask yourself right about now, "why on earth would she has so many blogs?"
Well.. Its a question even I couldn't answer. LOL

Anyways, for this very first post and a few next to come, I will be just copy-pasting posts from my not-so-updated-well-no-longer-updated-blog-which-I'm-going-to-close-it-down.
There, i wrote quite a number of entries, even i was surprise at how many I have written. LOL.
Poems and rants about nothing.

This will be the first of many posts about my past skepticism, uncertainties on life or whatever there is to talk about.
So here goes. Originally from Atikah. *wink*

14 December 2005, Atikah Ansari

Confusingly I am happy with myself but at the same time I'm worried that I might somehow disappoint someone I care and love so dearly..
In the midst of a silent and dark night, I cried in my sleep..
I wept in my dreams even..
Though my dreams are forgettable but some could leave a very big impression on me..
Which at times made me think whether my actions are sincere,
Whether my intentions are correct and truthful or far from it..
I loved a lot of people in my past years and still am now very much care for these people but sometimes my bloody big ego gets in the way..
Making sure that I will not let my guard down even in front of my loved ones..
Sad isn't it? But it is in me..
I can't stop it but I may change it or go around it..
Hmm.. Just maybe I could..
But I am always thankful that these people managed to find my "coolness",
Managed to see that I'm not always hard,
Managed to love me even..
I am glad..
I am truly grateful..
I've been blessed with such gentle-hearted people..
Only God could repay such kindness..
I'm falling..
And will always fall..
But somehow I couldn't reach the ground..
Although it feels so near yet it seems as if getting there takes a life time..

I guess I should learn something from my "old" me?

As of now, this will be it.
Will continue copy-pasting from my other/old blog soon.

Till then, do take care.
The whether has been difficult? (being rainy/hot and all..)
O ya, did I mentioned that right now is Ramadhan?
The more for you to take care that health of yours ya? ;)