yet again

i yet again disappointed you.

saya tak faham..

kenapa perlu saya beremosi.

kenapa saya perlu cemburu.

kenapa saya selalu bersikap sebegini.

kenapa saya perlu pikir perkara2 yang merumitkan.

kenapa SAYA yang sering merumitkan keadaan.

kenapa saya boleh jadi macam ini.

saya tak faham.

its that time again

theres something that i dont feel right about.

asyik nak marah.
asyik nk moody.
tarik muka.
tanak senyum.

why?

and this makes him confused.

ive done this before.
last year?
last 2 years?

mesti happen.

i have no clue why.

but i know theres always a reason for this.
i just dont know what.

and no, its not PMS.

when..

i dont get what i want, i become bitter.
human nature.

so... different topic please~
yesterday my dad/mom found my missing/misplaced watch.
it was on our car all along. pfft me!

today, my telekung pulak hilang.
hilang kt surau.
Apekah?

telekung pun nk curik ke? :/

Happiness' not gonna stay

And thus stupidity comes into the picture.

Happiness likes to stop by.
rub it in.
lets you glow.
lets you float.

and then BAM!!
it left. runaway.

no letters, not even little notes.
no news.
no message.
nada.

An emotional wreck without any reason is stupid.
and therefore i'm stupid.

please excuse this excruciatingly shallow post.
just wanted to let it out.

I cried for no apparent reason.
is it because what my dad said?
i shouldn't care. but i know i should!
(yup, money. atikah, REMEMBER to pay them back!! EVERY CENT!!)
but not to a point of crying.

stupid atikah. ERRRGHHHH!!!!!

and just now at work.
just as i was ready to finish up my work. NAK BALIK DAH OIIII!
the printer wont print!!!
just 3 pages for crying out LOUD!
suddenly NOW it doesnt want to work.

stupid printer!!

Thank god, I'm a clever b***h.
changed a few setting. and the printer prints!
sheesssshhhh!

o ya, my title.
its true you know.
alaa.. like the term;
"sometimes you're up.
sometimes you're down."
its how you see it. i guess.

this time, i want to see it in a negative way.
please let me be negative/frown/throws a tantrum/scream/curse JUST for a day.
PLEASE!

heck, i'm gonna do it. its my life right?


one more.
Dear friends, (especially Tai C,L, Cheong S.Y, Daniel)
Happy Chinese New Year!
Year of the Ox. but don't drink too much X.O.
LOL.




STOP THE WAR!!
STOP THE KILLINGS!!