Aidil Fitri

Salam.

Selamat Hari Raya dear Malaysians!

Lets pray that after this holiday, I will receive a very very good news from a certain company.

I really hope I could get this job.

Went for the 1st interview on 5th Sept.
Then got a call back for 2nd interview which was on 16th Sept.
They will give a call to shortlisted candidate 1 or 2 weeks after the Raya Holidays.

Please pray for me~

Yowzer!

I cant believe i'm starting to miss the good ol' studying days.

where you can just hang the whole day when class got canceled.
buat kerja/homework/take home test/assignments/projects, all at the last minute.
where you just "had" to cheat so you could pass the pop quiz.

I miss the time when I could discuss just about anything with Sabrina, nurul and yana.
About life, family, being lazy, bitching over zuzu, ehm-ehm and college's education system, laughed hard over stupid jokes, trying to smoke shisha but couldnt (i failed hard yo!), touching each others boobies, calling each other t*t*k, lepaking and last minute revising at McD, gaga over tie, late nights at PakLi, discovering yuna and other cool musicians, karaoke-ing after last paper..
OMG. It was just too much.

and im missing it.

working life has taken too much of my time.
love the pay but..
its exhausting kan? im even out of ideas to put title for this entry! XP
now, its even harder to pick clothes to wear for work.
and looking forward for the clock to strike 6pm.
im bad.
a bad employee.

oh well, what to do.
life must go on.
we are all grown up.
we have to grow up eventually.
except occasionally. hehe.

next stop: CFA
kene buka buku balik.
yeay!

Goodbye 1st half 2009

The entry I posted on 23rd January 2009 was an immature one.

The title itself screams immaturity, childish and selfish.

Half year of 2009 has passed.

A lot had happened.

Learnt a lot too.

Interneship,
got 4 new kittens, insurance, meetings,
2 kittens missing, convocation,
left brownie and blackie (kittens), continued working, real estate,
brownie went for surgery, court, looked for properties, sold properties,
family gatherings, not guilty, spring cleaning, room still messy,
friends got married, friends got pregnant, friends safely lahirkan anak,
fandom, etc.

And with these experiences, I am thankful and glad that I am still alive.

Time has past so quickly.

Farewell first half of 2009. Hello July 2009 and months to come.

Pertunangan

Just recently my dear friend has gotten engaged.
He was a classmate who likes to bully people. (during primary years only)
I knew her through him and fellow school mate.
I knew it through facebook.
How bad am I as a friend?
sigh~

It was my fault for not keeping in touch
and now I'm the one who is sorry
I feel so devastated yet happy for both of them.
Mixed feelings surfaced when I look at the sweet pictures.

I didnt even know the date of their engagement night.
Maybe last Sunday? or is it Saturday? (27th? 28th June 2009?)
Will definitely wont miss the Nikah and Kenduri!
For sure!

Dear Azimah, Dear Syed,
I pray for your happiness and well being.
I know you are in love with each other so stay that way forever.
Congratulations on the engagement my friends. ;)

Happiness' not gonna stay

And thus stupidity comes into the picture.

Happiness likes to stop by.
rub it in.
lets you glow.
lets you float.

and then BAM!!
it left. runaway.

no letters, not even little notes.
no news.
no message.
nada.

An emotional wreck without any reason is stupid.
and therefore i'm stupid.

please excuse this excruciatingly shallow post.
just wanted to let it out.

I cried for no apparent reason.
is it because what my dad said?
i shouldn't care. but i know i should!
(yup, money. atikah, REMEMBER to pay them back!! EVERY CENT!!)
but not to a point of crying.

stupid atikah. ERRRGHHHH!!!!!

and just now at work.
just as i was ready to finish up my work. NAK BALIK DAH OIIII!
the printer wont print!!!
just 3 pages for crying out LOUD!
suddenly NOW it doesnt want to work.

stupid printer!!

Thank god, I'm a clever b***h.
changed a few setting. and the printer prints!
sheesssshhhh!

o ya, my title.
its true you know.
alaa.. like the term;
"sometimes you're up.
sometimes you're down."
its how you see it. i guess.

this time, i want to see it in a negative way.
please let me be negative/frown/throws a tantrum/scream/curse JUST for a day.
PLEASE!

heck, i'm gonna do it. its my life right?


one more.
Dear friends, (especially Tai C,L, Cheong S.Y, Daniel)
Happy Chinese New Year!
Year of the Ox. but don't drink too much X.O.
LOL.




STOP THE WAR!!
STOP THE KILLINGS!!

internship

tomorrow will be day 1 of 10-week internship program.

shivers me spine thinking.
but will somehow be optimistic.

EVERYTHING will go well.

hai~
pray for me! X3

selfish

children can be selfish.

why?

we rebel when parents trying to protect us.
we don't listen when they give advices.
we talk back when at times we shouldn't
we sigh when they asked us a few favors.
we make faces when they starts to bebel.


parents. on the other hand.

tried their hardest to give whats best.
never get tired of us.
just had to give advices wishing that we won't make mistakes like they did.
just want to protect their "babies".


but sometimes these never-tiring-love could lead to suffocation.

a suffocation that we should bare and appreciate.
and never take for granted.

run, stop, relax.

something we are so use to doing, suddenly stop.
what should we do?

will we be running amok?
will everything go haywire?

perhaps we should slow down and look at the rainbow.
right after the rain.
perhaps we should stop and feel the light breeze.
of a calm evening.

it will be hard at first but please.
dont be despair.
everything will work out eventually.

What's for dinner?

today, my dad had to cook dinner.
its not something new. really.
coz my dad and i usually cook dinner when mom went outstation.

but today i wasn't at home.
so i wouldn't know what had happen while i was away.
by the time i got home, everyone had already eaten dinner.
then i took a look what was on the dinner table.
waaaaaaaahh!! kuah ikan masak kicap! ni first time abah masak ni!
i said to myself.
but nenek told me that abah cooked while he was on the phone.
waaa.. my multi-tasker-daddy!
hehehehe..

what's amazing was.
for the first time i tasted kuah ikan masak kicap plus (see the boldness of the word) asam!
yes! kuah kicap rase asam!
hahahahaa!!
coz we all know, its either manis or masin. right?
and that what my dad cooked.
kuah ikan (tongkol a.k.a tuna) masak kicap campur asam keping. XD

heres how our conversation went
me: daddy! sedap la ikan masak kicap abah tu!! (tahan gelak)
abah: ye ke? tapiii.... abah rase ade kurang laa.. macam something was off.
me: hahahahahaaha!! mesti la! abah letak asam keping!!! XDD *gelak gelak gelak*
abah: HAHAHAAHAHAHA!!
me: camne abah buat actually? *still laughing*
abah: i tgk tv, on how to make ikan masak kicap BUT! it was steam.
tapi i buat kuah la. the steps were the same.
mula-mula, letak la ape patut. Like, bawang putih, besar, oyster sauce, kicap, ikan.
then.. bile nk abis2 tu.. rase macam ade yang tak cukup.
macam manis jee..
i menyampuk: ehh.. daddy! its either manis or masin laa.. kan? *gelak lagi*
abah: ha? yeke? hahahaha!! whatever la, abah terus letak asam keping!!
*we both laughed hard!*

the weird thing is, its kinda..... sedap?
i'm an asam freak, so kuah asam, asam pedas, tom yam, anything masam and pedas, i can eat all day, all night.
so maybe my judgment is kinda bias. :P

the side dishes were..
sliced fresh tomato (acted as the ulam/sayur), and sambal. that's it!
yup.
macam makanan bujang. hahaha!!
well, kinda. since my mom pergi outstation.

so here is the dinner my dearest dad made~ XD

innocent looking kuah kicap

XD *i cant help it!*

the "salad"

the sambal. err.. whats left of it XD

abah.. abah..

to straight things out

i'm ok.

like i said before, it was all paranoia..
hmm..
women with their ability to think too far..
can sometimes leads to destruction..

but..

its not over yet.